I see bad things.

"Well, I believe in the soul, the cock, the pussy, the small of a woman's back, the hanging curve ball, high fiber, good scotch, that the novels of Susan Sontag are self-indulgent, overrated crap. I believe Lee Harvey Oswald acted alone. I believe there ought to be a constitutional amendment outlawing Astroturf and the designated hitter. I believe in the sweet spot, soft-core pornography, opening your presents Christmas morning rather than Christmas Eve and I believe in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days"
- Kevin Costner as Crash Davis - Bull Durham.

Life teaches everyone everything.You start with the good things first.When you are born you learn to say 'PAPA' and 'MA'.Then one day you learn to walk.You learn the alphabets.Then the numbers.The square.The triangles.The pythagorus theorem.One day you learn V=IxR.The you learn Organic Chemistry.The Biot-Savart Law.Then the better things start:You learn to kiss.To love.To make friends.To have girlfriends.And one day the bad things fix inside your head:To hate.To fake.To fuck.To lie.Detest.Ditch.And by the time you realize it's enough,you are too late to go back to the good lessons.You can be mad as a mad dog at the way things went.You swear and curse the fate.But when it comes to the end,you have to let it go.But everyone learns something which becomes their identity.Inside each and every one of us is our one,true authentic swing.Something we were born with.Something that's ours and ours alone.Something that can't be learned.Something that's got to be remembered.The one thing you will always love about yourself,no matter how bad you become.The one thing which will make you believe in your soul that whatever you do is right.

I see the worst in people.I see what they don't see in themselves,just like the bad things other see in me,which I don't see in myself.I try to learn again.Learn the good lessons.But I give up.Being good is tough.But being good from being bad is tougher.I hope to get up one morning in my small 1x1 bed,I used to sleep on when I was an year old.I want to start from start.I want to sleep without hate in my head.I want to sleep thinking how Ice-lollies would taste after school the next day.I want to be confused about how children are born.I want to wonder about why do people in 12th standard look so tensed during exams.I want to go back in time.I want to be a character of Star Wars.I want to fly in space,somewhere no one would see bad in me.Somewhere I won't see bad in people.Somewhere I will be again taught squares and rectangles.Somewhere I won't have a lot to think about.Somewhere I won't have a lot to write about.Somewhere.